I am rather bored this evening. And have been for most of the day. Normally on a Saturday, I would be with Toby, as is obvious judging by all the weekend posts. This weekend is going to be a day-by-day, post-by-post jobbie, as I actually have the time. I have nothing else to do besides wait for odd text messages from my beloved, ponder over and over and over about which phone to get, as I still haven’t decided, and talk to the few people that have as little a life as I do without Toby. It’s rather silly that I depend on him to do stuff every weekend, but I kind of do. I guess I’m just a bit of a sad geek who has no other friends. Lucky me.

I have in fact decided that I miss him, but not as much as I thought I did. My current feelings of depression are due to him not being here, but because before I had him I was a depressed teen. I’m slowly going back to that without him being here with me. I feel alone.. And I don’t like it…