I’ve been back at school for a couple of weeks now; it’s going well. It’s quite fun actually, apart from my rules..

The old ‘once in the week plus weekends’ is back for me and Toby. Which was working well until this week. It was our 6 month anniversary on Monday, and we had to meet up then to swap pressies like the silly people we are. I made him a scrap book of the last 6 months, and he bought me a star! A STAR! From Gift Republic! It’s awesome. They give you a star with its coordinates and stuffI named it Kat Loves Toby, so now there will eternally be a star named that up there somewhere, well, until it dies, and our love will be immortal.. Okay, so it’s cheesy but I wanted to.

Anyway.. Tuesday was good, I got on and did all my homework so I was free for the evening, doing.. Not much. I had football training before school yesterday, and then Emma, Catt, Sam and I did some more after school. We then stayed up in the PE staff room with Mr Bolton (the coach) for ages, until 5 o clock, and then he wanted to go home so we got chips and went too.

It was all good, I was doing more work and I phoned Toby to have a chat, and I asked if he could meet me before school as I hadn’t seen him since Monday. He said he didn’t want to get up, not even to see me (I would..), because he had a day off to see Phil as he’s off to Uni soon. So I said they could come up and meet me in my free period last thing, and it got worse..

Anyway, we had a fight texting last night and this morning. At one point he said I should just go out with Matt, who I was helping with Maths later.. Who I don’t even like.. Who I’ve never liked.. Which Toby knew..

So I went after school to Toby’s and we had a chat and said sorry. Well, I said sorry. And then we went upstairs and Toby and Phil were messing with a server and I did my Maths homework, and then when we were going he mumbled something which vaguely resembled a ‘sorry’ and we went off. They dropped me home to finish all my work and they went back to Phil’s to have a guys’ night of pizza and Xbox.

So now I’m here on my own, realising how much of a stupid drama queen I’ve subconsciously been and wallowing in my own self-pity and anger. I apologised to Toby and all he could come up with was ‘I wondered when you’d say something’…

Fan-bloody-tastic.