Well, it’s the end of the decade. I don’t know what I have to say really apart from the fact that this decade has been.. Erm.. interesting. The new millennium.. I was too young to really be interested in, but it’s cool to say I’ve lived in two millennia! Then there was the start of secondary school, which was shit. Most of the time it’s been full of fights between friends.. Most of them involving one person, and another that goes with the first. We got over that though.. At the end of year 11! The decade also showed me the death of my Grandad back in 2005, who I miss so much, the same as I miss my Nanna. Both my Mum’s parents, both Cancer. It really is a horrible thing.

The last two years have shown me more than my fair share of harsh heartbreaks. First, there was the involved with someone else guy, who stopped talking to me one second and that was that.. Second, there was Sam. He was nice. I really really did like him, almost love. I thought it was at the time, I’ve since seen better. Sam was harsh, but I understand why. It would have been a bad weekend if he’d said he didn’t love me before I visited him in Manchester.. But I still would have preferred if he didn’t leave me.. And then there were the few fantasies about unavailable men.. LOL.

But then, as if by magic, once I’d stopped looking for a boyfriend, good old Suzie mentioned her friend one Monday. He was 18, single, and in a similar situation to me. I added him on msn first. He was funny; had a similar sense of humour to me. We did a bit of webcam chatting, and he was cute. I’d started to really like him. We’d been talking all week, and we came close to asking each other an important question. It came to Friday and he got the afternoon of work to meet me after school. I walked out with Suzie and saw him. He was awesome.

He walked me home, and then Suzie invited us to the cinema the day after to see Slumdog Millionaire. We had fun, and didn’t really watch most of the film. Every time he touched me I buzzed. It was incredible. That evening, we both had a text from Suzie saying ‘so are you two going out?’. I asked him if we were, and we were. I had a boyfriend. His name is Toby.

Since then, it’s been nine months. Nine. I couldn’t be happier. Honestly, he is the best thing that ever happened to me, and I couldn’t live without him.

This year has definitely been the best out of the 10. I’ve had Toby for most of it. I’ve also finished one of the most stressful times: my GCSEs. And I’ve found that I don’t need to have certain people to be happy. I don’t need the friends that don’t care about me, and I definitely don’t need anybody who thinks its right to treat me like shit. I’m more mature than I have been ever, and I know that’s a little obvious seeing as I’m older, but I mean I’m more mature than I should be for a late 16 year old. I’m ready for the rest of my life.

So, I’ve said about most of this year, and you’ve read most of the important stuff where I’ve written it, now we’re onto just December.

This month has seen the first few customers for my themes business, and it’s growing. I’m earning money for work that I enjoy, which is brilliant, however old you are. I’ve also grown up a lot more this month I think. Toby and I had a minor disagreement last week which was quite upsetting, but we’re through it, and it shows that I’m in a strong relationship that won’t be put to sleep for something silly. It’s great. I feel so in love with him, more than ever really. I love how we can just do whatever we want, be that playing on the xbox or just sitting in front of the TV with arms around each other, without worrying about appearance or behaviour. He loves me for me, with or without makeup, with or without my bad habits. And I love him the same.

I’ve come out of the first term of my AS Levels this month, with a pretty good report. Two A’s, and roughly two Bs. I’m pretty pleased with that. And hopefully my Christmas presents will reflect my hard work! I am so excited about that too! I’ve had all my presents bought and wrapped for about two weeks now! It’s awesome. I can’t wait to see Toby open his. To be honest, I’m more excited about Toby opening his present than I am about getting my own. Mum says I’m growing up, since that’s what she’s always been like with me and my brother. I really can’t wait.

We had snow today as well. Not much, and it soon turned into rain, but it’s a start. I was sitting there in the Maths classroom and saw it out of the window. Every time I finished a question I was leaning on the windowsill gazing at the snow with wide eyes and a big smile. I think the snow just brings out the child in everyone, and along with everyone’s best brought out by the Christmas season, it just seems so wonderful. All the teachers are happy it’s the end of term and it’s Christmas, so we haven’t had as much homework, which is really good. It’s just nice now, school is winding down for the holidays, people are happy and jolly.. God I sound like a poet.. I mean, it is nice, whatever people say. Everywhere we go there’s Christmas stuff. Lights down the high street, on peoples’ houses, everywhere. It’s just the perfect time of year. Apart from the cold.

We’ve also got New Year’s Eve to celebrate! This should be the best one yet. As I’ve said, I wasn’t really old enough to make a big deal out of the new millennium, but this new decade will be well celebrated. Firstly because I’ll be able to drink without being thrown out of my friend’s house by her mum, secondly because I won’t be on my own like last year, and thirdly because I’ll have my incredible boyfriend to kiss at midnight. I can’t wait for his party. From what I’ve heard, Hewett New Year’s Eve parties are quite entertaining!

The end of the year will be brilliant. I’ll probably post again sometime in January, most likely earlier rather than later as I’ll have 17^th birthday plans to make!

Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!